First and foremost, I wanted to mention that this post isn't a direct response to anyone in particular. It's something I've wanted to write for some time now, and I think this recent mishap is a good opportunity to do so. Especially since Matt has given me the perfect quote to frame and get my foot in the door.
Please direct all hate towards me as the staff are not responsible in any part for these nerfs, thanks.
Alright, let's do this.
It's cool to critique and throw shade where necessary. I get that, and I'm doubly appreciative of the freedom to do that here, where other servers might go to extra lengths to shut down similar criticism. Being vocal when you're dissatisfied is exactly what I like to see. That said, there's a running trend I've noticed that I wanted to address.
I want to be openly honest and admit that it bothers me when I see flack thrown at the entire event team. Not in a "don't you dare insult us" way, but in the implication that we're a hive-mind that is prone to jumping the shark and ruining your PSO experience. We're really not, and honestly, most of our discussions actually wind up being arguments. Our events are forged in the flames of opposition, and what you usually see is the result of us acting like adults and finding a compromise. The group started as a QA and eventually became a debate team that occasionally agrees long enough to bounce ideas around.
In my opinion, the worst events we've ever hosted haven't been due to universally bad decisions, but rather, a lack of multiple voices. Case and point: my opinion here was that the nerf came across as knee-jerk and was probably unnecessary, but I didn't speak up. This time of year is always super busy for me, so I ignored it, and had I not, we might not be where we are now. And I don't say this to throw my fellow event staff members under the bus; just to establish some context, because that's just kind of how it goes internally sometimes. We argue our points based on our experiences and game design outlook. Sometimes we say nothing out of apathy, and/or because life comes first. We're not a well oiled machine, we don't always agree with each other and we definitely don't think our ideas are on some sort of pedestal above other ideas.
It's for this reason that when I see posts asking why "they" would do something, or that "they" didn't consider X/Y/Z, it's sort of jarring. Not just from an accuracy standpoint, but as a reminder that we don't really connect with the community enough to give any other impression. Most of us do this for fun, because we love this game and the people who truly make the experience what it is. I'm in it because I'm happy when as many people are enjoying themselves as possible, and I love to receive honest feedback on how I can do better next time. I find it easy to blank out the people who need an outlet to vent or are just plain rotten when there are enough of you who care about and respect your community enough to approach it with a level head. Even so, because I'm wearing the colors of the scrutinized team, sometimes the universal criticism can feel personal, even when it isn't supposed to be, if that makes sense.
So, what do I expect to be done about it? Well, uh, nothing. Because these discussions occur behind closed doors, we can't really say who had what idea, and therefore it's difficult for the rest of you to know who to direct your hate mail to. Ergo, blame the whole group. It's broad, but it's a line of logic that holds up everywhere else in the gaming industry (we rag on Sega all the time but I can't imagine they're all as incompetent as we imply) so it stands to reason that it makes sense here. I don't think anyone who has done this before is being outlandish, but I wanted to add an extra perspective. If anything, I guess the goal here is to convince people to choose their words more carefully. So instead of blaming the event staff when something bad happens, just blame it on "whoever thought it was a good idea." Then they can feel ashamed for something they're directly responsible for, you know?
I'm probably wearing my heart too close to my sleeve here, but I felt like I needed to say it. Hope this was insightful and doesn't come across as too defensive. Thanks for reading. Stay beautiful.